I try to remind myself every day what a wonderful life I live. I try to keep in mind all the happy moments & I try to forget about all of the doctor appointments. Monday makes it one whole year since everything started. One whole year. I can’t believe its February again. I can’t believe how much has changed in this last year. This time last year all I could think of was finally holding my sweet baby girl. This February I’m worried about MRI’s, neurology visits and if my baby will be known as “the elephant baby” .
But one great thing to think of is Rachel’s birthday party on this Saturday. Everything will be perfect and I won’t let anything ruin her day. This party is just as much for our family as it is for Rachel. We survived one year of not knowing together. We made it this far together. We did it: together. Are you getting the theme here? I’ve always been a big family person. Always. So me having children didn’t change that. It just made that part of me more solid; more real.

